Friday, September 26, 2008
Posted by ~Andrea~ A Burns Life/The Losing Side Of Life at 4:11 PM
Thursday, September 25, 2008
I'm not sure exactly why but lately all I feel is alone...I'm sure it's something to do with these lovely hormones I got going on and then the fact that nobody else around me is going through the same thing I am so it leaves me with a lonely feeling. The constant headaches, backaches, swelling, trouble breathing, can't bend over thing is also contributing....it stinks I have to act like nothings wrong and pretend to feel great when I really don't, but I have no one else to turn to to help with things. Don't get me wrong I love that I'm having Riley and wouldn't change anything about it just the emotions are overwhelming sometimes. Chris is a great and wonderful husband but not too much for the affection part so it's def. not helping with the alone feeling I have going on. I've asked him for a few weeks now for something and the only answer is no, so I quit asking..since I figured I knew the answer already, he deals with his things himself. A nice massage would be great but I'm not spending the money to have one and I don't know anyone who does them anyway. It's funny how with a million people around you daily and a million things going on, you feel all alone and like your just stuck there. Guess I get to have my pity party blog, huh...Riley will be here a week from tomorrow, so I have lots to look forward to and lots to keep me busy maybe that will help. Waiting is draining trying to stay busy so that'll go by quickly which some days drag on forever is seems so that's not really working. Chris has that Gator game Sat. I'm not going since it's a 12:30 kick off and my wobbling has worsened..lol and then the Jag game on Sun. so I'm going to be all alone since I'm sure Lil' munchkin will be over at Papa's working on tractors, having a blast! Oh well I guess I've learned take what you can get and be happy with it...even if it's just a kiss in the morning and an I Love You...something is better than nothing, right? Another night of not sleeping is almost over and another day to look forward to, so guess I'm off to make the most of it and try to feel normal...
Posted by ~Andrea~ A Burns Life/The Losing Side Of Life at 4:53 AM
Sunday, September 21, 2008
The last weekend we have to get the house all cleaned and straightened and what did we do...we actually got it done! I feel so much better having a clean and neat household once again:) I still have a few loads of clothes to get done but the majority of all the house is done. Speaking of house they came and marked off the house and are gonna break ground on it in the morning. I am so excited that it's finally under way and rolling. They give an estimate of around 5 months but I'll take what I can get as long as it gets done. The house being clean gives such a great feeling..my back is killing me now but over all I feel so accomplished, I guess a big part is it wasn't just the house it was also the car that got cleaned too so today was my deep clean day. It's back to the routine in the morning...Logan's open house is Tues. so we're looking forward to it, he's been singing "God Bless America" and all the other songs he's learned and saying all of his verses....he's getting so big and turning into our Lil' man instead of our Lil' munchkin. Our last weekend of peace and not running around everywhere was very nice....I know I'm gonna miss it but I am certainly looking forward to everything too. Other than Logan's open house and a doctors appt. on Wed. this week isn't too hectic so I'm gonna try and enjoy it as much as possible. Nothing exciting going on so not much to update on just hoping the next week and half fly by. I guess it's off to bed in which I'm hoping to sleep better than I have been, I've been so exhausted that I'm praying I'll just go right to sleep and stay asleep....Goodnight and hopefully very sweet dreams!
Posted by ~Andrea~ A Burns Life/The Losing Side Of Life at 9:16 PM
Sunday, September 14, 2008
Posted by ~Andrea~ A Burns Life/The Losing Side Of Life at 10:33 AM