The Path We Take...

The old saying that "everything happens for a reason" has always been a saying that I believed in and just always knew that what happens is meant to happen, even though we may not know why God always seems to know what he's doing. The day I will always remember as the day this saying meant more to me than ever was Jan. 31, 2008..that's the day I found out I was pregnant. I went to my doctor for just a regular annual exam when the nurse asked the normal questions and all the fun stuff. She asked about my cycle and I told her I should start on and around the 5th like always, and I had been having cramping and all the usual symptoms. She said she would check my urine and if nothing showed she was going to do a test just to be sure, I was thinking sure go ahead there's no way that I am so your just wasting time but ok. I will never forget her face when she walked around the corner holding that test....I think I went pale white and just knew before she said anything. I started crying and just kept thinking this isn't happening not now, not like this its not suppose to happen this way....just NOT YET. I finally got out of the office and called Chris, he knew something was wrong since I couldn't stop crying to even tell him and by putting two and two together figured out what was wrong with me and why I couldn't even breathe hardly. Needless to say the next weeks were really hard and filled with alot of decisions about things..things that we never thought we would have to think about until much later in life. We knew it was something we could do and do together no matter what and knew that God had put this into our lives for a reason and that we needed to find out what that reason was. It seems like so long ago then it seems just like yesterday, we've had some ups and downs with it, after a couple weeks I had some spotting so off to the ER we went to find out that nothing was visible except for the yolk sac so the doctor labeled it a "threatened miscarriage" and told me to come back in a week for another US. Nothing in your life is as hard as waiting that week to find out either the best or worse news in your life. We went back in and they found a heartbeat and everything looked ok, it's been going ever since then. We are expecting our Lil' girl Riley Eleanore Burns on Oct. 3rd! God put her in our lives for reasons we may not know or understand but he does and he knows what path we are meant to take in our lives even if we never seem too. It seems like he planted her into our lives when both me and Chris needed to know what direction to take and where to go both personally and together. He put us on our path that we needed to take, that without Riley we may not have ever taken. I've come to realize that things do happen for a reason as they always seem to but only now does it mean the rest of my life to me.....