Back To School We Go...

Well it's finally nice to be back on a routine again..yay school is back! Logan enjoys it so much so it's great to finally be back on a schedule and routine, at least for the time being. Yesterday was an ok day it was going same as usual and nothing spectacular had happened when a friend sent me some very exciting news, which in turn made the day amazing! It's so great how one thing can make such a great difference in your day. We're finally starting to get things a little organized around here..and I said a little cause it's a little but it's better than nothing! They are suppose to be starting on our footers for the house next week, THANK GOODNESS so we're really excited about that..they finished all the permits on the house last week:) You have no idea how happy I am that we will have room in about 5 months! I am looking forward to this weekend for one reason and one reason only: GATOR FOOTBALL IS HERE! I am so ready for football to start, there are two things that go together football and fall two of things I love most about this time of year. I only get to go to the first two games and then I have to miss the others till around mid Nov. so I'm gonna enjoy the ones I do get to go to. Nothing else I can think of at the moment so I'll leave you with this a list of things I'm looking forward to most this week:

1. School starting back after frustrating Fay...

2. Seeing Logan getting back into a routine, finally...

3. Getting to watch the first college football game Thur. at the in-laws...

4. Chris having off work Fri...:)

5. The first game of the 2008 Florida Gator Football on Sat.!

6. Getting a 4 day weekend with my new Husband..(that's the best one yet)

7. Getting to enjoy life and all it's blessings!

The Path We Take...

The old saying that "everything happens for a reason" has always been a saying that I believed in and just always knew that what happens is meant to happen, even though we may not know why God always seems to know what he's doing. The day I will always remember as the day this saying meant more to me than ever was Jan. 31, 2008..that's the day I found out I was pregnant. I went to my doctor for just a regular annual exam when the nurse asked the normal questions and all the fun stuff. She asked about my cycle and I told her I should start on and around the 5th like always, and I had been having cramping and all the usual symptoms. She said she would check my urine and if nothing showed she was going to do a test just to be sure, I was thinking sure go ahead there's no way that I am so your just wasting time but ok. I will never forget her face when she walked around the corner holding that test....I think I went pale white and just knew before she said anything. I started crying and just kept thinking this isn't happening not now, not like this its not suppose to happen this way....just NOT YET. I finally got out of the office and called Chris, he knew something was wrong since I couldn't stop crying to even tell him and by putting two and two together figured out what was wrong with me and why I couldn't even breathe hardly. Needless to say the next weeks were really hard and filled with alot of decisions about things..things that we never thought we would have to think about until much later in life. We knew it was something we could do and do together no matter what and knew that God had put this into our lives for a reason and that we needed to find out what that reason was. It seems like so long ago then it seems just like yesterday, we've had some ups and downs with it, after a couple weeks I had some spotting so off to the ER we went to find out that nothing was visible except for the yolk sac so the doctor labeled it a "threatened miscarriage" and told me to come back in a week for another US. Nothing in your life is as hard as waiting that week to find out either the best or worse news in your life. We went back in and they found a heartbeat and everything looked ok, it's been going ever since then. We are expecting our Lil' girl Riley Eleanore Burns on Oct. 3rd! God put her in our lives for reasons we may not know or understand but he does and he knows what path we are meant to take in our lives even if we never seem too. It seems like he planted her into our lives when both me and Chris needed to know what direction to take and where to go both personally and together. He put us on our path that we needed to take, that without Riley we may not have ever taken. I've come to realize that things do happen for a reason as they always seem to but only now does it mean the rest of my life to me.....

I Wonder, Why Us...

I sit here and wonder most of the times throughout the day, why us. I am so thankful that God has blessed us so much, but I can't help and wonder why things still seem wrong somewhere. I mean I'm so blessed and thank God everyday for everything he has done in my life but why, just why. I wonder why a couple who is so great and wonderful, loving and caring didn't get to keep their baby and why they have to go through everything that they are. I know God puts struggle into your life for reasons unknown to us but I can't help and still question the reasoning behind it. I feel so guilty for having such a blessing when they deserve it just as much if not more than we do, but they can't have that and rejoice in it like we are right now, like they should be able to. Instead they are struggling and praying everyday for the good news they deserve to hear and I can't help but pray everyday that they finally get to hear it. I feel guilty in knowing that we would be sharing the exact same feelings and going though the same emotions and anxiety waiting for our babies to get here almost at the same time. I want to share the good news and all the things that happen and are so great, but then I revel in the despair and pain that she has to go through that I never have. She has been through things that I can never imagine having to face, and while God knows what he's doing and why she has to make it through, I can't help but wonder why and hope and pray that he makes their struggle that much more worth it in the end. She is such a brave and great woman to endure the things I have never had to and hopefully will never have to go through. I will never know her pain or her struggle, all I can do is support her as best I can and pray that God grants our prayers and that they finally get what they want more than anything in this world...those two pink lines that turn into that one beautiful miracle...

Something Old, Something New...

The wedding weekend is over and gone, it kinda just flew by and was gone in a flash. There are lots of things I wish would have gone diffrent and things that would have been right but too late now and you can't go back and change things so what can ya do. There is one thing that made it all worth it and that was getting to marry the man I love oh so much and just knowing that we have each other forever and always now and that's what matters most to me! I'm happy and ready to get our lives started officially as husband and wife.