*Sigh*..So today's the day when I finally get to meet the little person who has been inside me all of this time. Today is filled with so many emotions and lots more to come I'm sure. As I look back over the past nine months and think about everything I've been through and that we've been through it seems so short yet that it took so long. I know we will be celebrating the birth of our baby girl, which I'm so ecstatic about and couldn't ask for anything more but at the same time thinking of those who should be celebrating with me and us and those who have yet a reason to celebrate. Life isn't fair most of the time but it still doesn't stop me from wishing that it was. I pray that in 7 months we can all celebrate again...and hopefully not far behind that again for other couple's who just seem to be on God's waiting list. There's alot I've wanted to say and put up and see but just haven't...I couldn't knowing that someone else should be me and not too far behind me or in front of me and they don't get to have that, at least not right now. I'm going to celebrate the birth of a new life today, a life that I helped create and let my spirit and soul finally get to know that it was all worth it, every single thing that I've been through and everything that me and Chris have been through...it comes to light today. In the back of my mind though I'll be thinking of others and praying for them today too. I still can't believe this day is here..I thought it would never come and over the past few weeks it seems like it's taken forever but here it is. I can't sleep even though I don't have to be up for another hour so I know I needed to write this, I actually did get some decent sleep last night, which is a major change..Lol:) So my nine months is up what a ride it's been, I can honestly say that I've learned much more about myself and others through it all and even though my journey through these months ends today....someone else's begins and continues on, I only hope and pray that they have a wonderful journey like mine and find out just how strong they are and that it's worth every minute of it. So, I'm off to the hospital, still hard to believe even now that in four hours our family of four will be complete.
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